Do I wanna settle down ?

So, I have a good job, decent salary and everything else is pretty much figured out. My life is a routine. I live in another city with unknown people. This makes me think sometimes what if I was living with my family? I wouldn’t have to wash my dishes, I wouldn’t have to wash my clothes, and I wouldn’t have to think of paying bills every month.

Once while on the phone with my mom, she just said "You have a good job, so get married. Your wife will do all the house chores and take care of you while you work and earn". I was like "psss... please mom".

But the other day, when I came home from work, I went into the washroom. And I saw my handkerchief and socks lying in there, which I kept there last night to wash. I didn’t wash it. I forgot. This made me think about what my mom said to me. I didn’t believe I was really thinking about it.

Marriage. Do I really need it? So I started analyzing it with pros and cons.

Pros:

Someone to take care of me.

Someone to do all the house chores.

Someone waiting for me when I come home from work.

Someone to support me mentally.

Cons:

The girl whom I'd marry won’t be the love of my life. So I won’t be happy with her.

The girl wont be HER.

The girl won’t make me feel the way she did.

The girl wont be happy as I wont be happy making it worse for both of us.

So, I came to a conclusion. If I don’t marry a girl whom I love, it won’t work. I won’t be happy, she won’t be happy and it would mess up everything. So its better I stay unmarried.

Also, I don’t want to come home from work and see some unknown girl waiting for me. I want her to be in that place, which is most likely to remain a dream. But dreaming makes this world tolerable. Without dreams, we would die.

So after all this time, it’s still her. The love of my life. My world just won’t spin without her.